Quarter life crisis?

And I'm back. HAHA.

So I am not currently going through a quarter-life crisis but I thought that maybe I might be going through one soon, especially after I graduate and maybe I'll just be working at a lab in Berkeley with no accountability and thinking to myself "is this it?" I actually didn't even know the notion of a quarter-life crisis until brother Leo told me about it (thanks Leo...poisoning my mind) HAHA jk. It's always good to step back and evaluate your life and see if it's in accord with whoever's plan it is you're following, either yours or God's. And thinking about the future is so crazy. The future is so near! Man, it really doesnt feel that long ago when I moved from high school on to college. That change was pretty dramatic. My brother used to take care of almost everything for me and then BAM as soon as I'm in college "you're in college! You do it!" That is literally what he said to me. I was quite bewildered. HAHA. And I can just see it, next year I'll be struggling with all these new things about life I didn't know and people will be like "welcome to the real world." Yea, thanks. O my.

But yea, how to prevent a quarter-life crisis? I guess to me is to make sure I feel like I'm living in obedience, to whatever/wherever it is that God wants for me. O dear, when I think about God, it's so crazy. I forget what it was that P. Arnold called it. It was about how humans are different from all other creation because we can think about thinking. Does that make sense? There was a word for it but I dont remember what it was. But yea, that's what I think sometimes when I think about God. It's like constructive wave interference (LOL physics) If I left it at that I think only susie would understand the analogy. But it's like when you drop a pebble in a puddle. Alota overlapping and then greater amplitude, and then to me sometimes it becomes a little too overwhelming and then I kinda just blank out. AHAHA yea... that word. Bah still cant think of it. But that's what I'm doing right now and writing nonsense.

ANYWAY. Vacation does not equal vacation from personal time with God. I find that I've been neglecting my Jesus during his birthday O_O A wise woman, by the name of my mama, once told me "You'll never find time, you gotta make time." Such truth. I gotta make more time for God. I should go do that now. Adios

MERRY CHRISTMAS!